TRY TO KILL IT ALL AWAY BUT I REMEMBER EVERYTHING

In this place it seems like such a shame

Though it all looks different now, I know it's still the same

Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be

Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now
This thing is slowly taking me apart 

I'm down to just one thing and i'm starting to scare myself 

You make me throw it all away

My head is filled with disease 

My skin is begging you, please.
I'm on my hands and knees

I want so much to believe. 

What have I become?